Drawn Close

It amazes me that I’m a YWAMer. I was NEVER going to do YWAM. But my father God has ways that are so much higher than my ways and when I begged him to use me, he took me seriously. So here I am, in the last weeks of lecture phase before my team leaves for a God-appointed outreach to Egypt and Israel (with an hour or five spent in Istanbul, Turkey).
The things I have learned! The revelations that God has given me about who he is and who I am in him, SO GOOD!
About a year ago, God met me as I listened to Raiya-a woman of God from Tajikistan- tell her goosebumps inducing story of Jesus. I wasn’t really hearing the voice of God at that point in my life but I felt this ‘Go talk to her’ nudge. I was so drawn to Raiya’s shameless adoration, her childlike faith in God. And when I went to talk to her, I felt so welcomed. Raiya was with YWAM and she told me about the Discipleship Training School that YWAM Coatesville would be running and encouraged me to fill out an application.
In late September, I moved to Coatesville. I was less than thirty minutes from my home, another confirmation from God that I was where he wanted me. I love to travel and if I were to have done a DTS without God, I would have gone anywhere but twenty-five minutes from home.
And God has been at work. He’s been tearing out the identity I had built for myself and replacing it with his identity for me. It’s painful but incredibly necessary. And God has loved and loved me so much throughout that I’ve been able to walk in trust that when he asks me to give him part of my ‘self-made woman’ that he will give me something better. Something from week one: God’s covenant is this, that everything I have is His and everything he has is mine. This is love, not that I loved him but that he loved and continues to love me.